Tag: Mental Health
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You!
Angrier by the minute.At the end of every bump in the road is you. The excuse, the illness, that is you.I hate you.I hate the pain, turmoil, and everything that comes with you.You are the thing that stole you.And You need to go away.
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Hourglass
Am I angry?Sure!Every thankless roadNo matter the fork-Or knife! Still the houseWithout a lakeA bountyOf giveAnd take… And lifeContinues no matterWhat miseryOr happinessThe loss! The picture…It’s bigger!Then rulers and dollars…Or boxes-Of course. So I bendWe passTo a timeAnd directionIn a glass.
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Why Me?
So many timesWhy not?Why not me?Now me?Now me!Why me?Why now?Punishment.In wanting-Not knowing.Then getting-No longer. . .Wanting.
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Weighted Mind
Oh, clock remind me of quiet,Without regret of time…Forgive these delusions,Engrossed through red wine- Wind coming and beckons-The life of dead trees-Bending bare branches-And life to its knees… Stillness brings the dark,No matter sun or moon…Rising up and out-Before her whispers swoon… The owl hears outside the window,And takes flight in kind,Again, her voice gives…
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Manipulation
I think I knew who you were. .Before you did,And that’s hardBecause I loved you anyway…And now “The Empty”-Though predictable-Is sad nonetheless.
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In the way
It’s like dustAnd our age,The sour smellBut benefits of sage…Or the healingWithin the spring-To only breakWith winter’s swing…It’s like the rageOf a perfect stormWhipping the pageAnd breaking the norm…It’s like marriageStrong and true-Only to breakBefore you knew…It’s like the screamAfter the cry-No matter the effort,Ours are or my…And it’s utteringYour greatest fearYes a laughBefore truth…
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Normal
NormalSuch a fragile stateNo fortune or promiseBut realizing what is too late…For it’s not to beWhile wasting away-It’s not gaining tomorrow,But losing today…What will life do?But sit back and watch…For it’s no matterWhen permanently lost. . .And what is new?Out of something old…Only what’s left-Minus what we are told.
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Life Change
Fuzzy skies As brain cells bend In mortal change Or comfort’s end- Feel the loss But earn a win Escape the prison Of history’s sin… Pray a break Of second’s sleep And stolen moments Confusion weeps… Now to breathe And live again As intended Or anxiety lends… For not of purpose Just natural fate- Future-proof…
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Regret
I’ll take your crazy And raise you sane Block injustice And forward the blame… I’ll take the medicine And forward the will Play the life That’s planning to kill… And I’ll be sorry Or a little late All in the time Of planning fate… And when all is done And the tears are dry- Life…
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Treat
Meeting the dare Such a new treat Something so salty Now becomes sweet.. And when the roof breaks Beyond repair No construction to salvage Or truth that’s fair… Just what is And what used to be Like the apple Fallen from the tree.
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In Vain
Land mines disguised as flowers Lightning in the rainbow Salt in the rain… Worms in the sand Life in the rocks Smiles in all the pain… And stories told For one more night Before the truth appears in vain.
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Again
Blood boils so quick anymore…. Always a joke- Can nothing be serious? Or even answered? Taking care is for granted- Maybe that’s why I stopped for so long? Clearly not long enough- Like time ever would be…. Pain is numbing Until it hurts- Or you stop. Does it stop? Or do you just go- I…
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Forgiveness
Pebbles and rocks Rivers and sand People and places Fantasy be damned… And over the edge Where fantasies live No hunger or suffering Just something to give…. And numb as it was Alive was inside Not for what was lost- But for what finally had died.
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Break
Yes! And that
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Unraveling
A moment after momentsUnraveling to start againAnother beginningBefore knowing the end A final tugTo fall apartNeatly balled upTo protect the heart And now the matterTo start it allDown the laneAnd up the wall. And when said and doneI’ll purr once moreHopefully a little betterThan those days before
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Burst
You know I’ve learned to hate you. This asshole that appears without warning. Oh I’ve learned signs, sure. Sleeping less and regular mentions of racing thoughts means it’s lurking- ready to feast on me, my emotions, and my health. The roller coaster runs despite screams and pain. Reason and logic have left the room, as…
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Worth Seeing
I had this world Beautiful and pure Wonders everywhere Tough to ignore. Slowly fractures Impacted the lens And what was loved Turned past in tense. The fractures are mine Minutes are pure But sometimes breaks Are much to endure. Life is a shuffle Made into a race And granted before Leaves no room to replace.…
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Mind
We are born to know you Strengthen you Build you Control you. Opportunity always open Danger near Pills and chemicals to help Or consequently destroy. Chemistry often missed In the courting effort For power The architect of fantasy. Command slowly changed Despite promise Or time Forgotten rules. Yes I was to control You! But like…
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Illusion’s Candor
Sounds of sandpaper rubbing- Walking through drying fields Drops escaping the puddle As toes remember their feel. Noises promise company- Loneliness weighs on shoulders . . . Walking up high for peace- Leaves the body feeling colder. Pieces fit into the puzzle- Broken as eggshells on the floor . . . Knowing something is different…
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Disorder
Spoken softly Stories are riddled Worm decadence Satan’s scribble. Humming anthems Rattling cage The war inside In which to wage. Dissolution necessary Within the head Silence the voices Respect the dead.
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Abandoned Self
Abandoned Self. Sanity’s laughter tempts reality….
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Clarity
20/20 vision Blind nonetheless Reasoning a fantasy The problem a guess. Left in the dark While seeing light Heavies the heart Awakens the night. Intelligence in theory Rational in dreams Certainty escaping Through foolish means. Suddenly token clarity Too many years have passed… Time the joker The mind left harassed.
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Line In The Sand
There is a shadow Stealing all sun and light- Darkness cowers the brave- Ignites the fight. When the shadow loses It slinks angrily away- Leaving alone in pain Its often wounded prey. No power to fight it- Or anything that has been done… Small victories are lost- The darkness has won. Then the light it…
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Office Visit
Wanting it here While begging you gone… Seeking the illusion of forever- Absence felt by dawn. Scattered memories fight Where sanity once lived- Becoming only a skeleton… What more is there to give? Chaos strives within Silence a coveted fantasy… Anxiety the common feeling- A future lacking any strategy. Left only to come to an…
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Just Crazy
The chaos is creating the lunatic. The silence is deadly. Where is the peace? Where is the wrong? Where is the right? Ridiculous blurry vision. Forgotten hours and wasted words- Action’s damage with more to hurt. No life. No comfort. Or hidden tense. If only it would get better. The feeling of failure- And opportunities…
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