Masquerade

masquerade

One after another
Eyes watch the run
Making clowns innocent
Of dying virtuous fun.

Paradise in the chase
Laughing fools
Complicated in theory
Simple hidden rules.

Another step forward
Four behind
Missing is everything
No way to rewind.

Laughter shaking the earth
Looks seemingly shy
Theory for all
Without intention or why.

Marching band plays
Couples slowly come
Alone at a table
All limbs numb.

So much promise once
Lost to missing time
Practice the hidden smile
Alone everything is fine.

Illusion’s Candor

Illusion

Sounds of sandpaper rubbing-
Walking through drying fields
Drops escaping the puddle
As toes remember their feel.
Noises promise company-
Loneliness weighs on shoulders . . .
Walking up high for peace-
Leaves the body feeling colder.
Pieces fit into the puzzle-
Broken as eggshells on the floor . . .
Knowing something is different
Failing to prove the more.
Regard all hidden realities-
Ending fantasy’s game . . .
And while truth stands in sight-
The mind hides it just the same.

State of Time


Pleasant sounds now have ominous tones

Begging for the worst

Painting the best.

The artist is unknown 

While work is displayed 

Manipulated understanding.

Young are born 

Old still age

Brevity highlighting it all.

Muscles ache

While wasting away

So is the state of time.

Heartbreak

heartbreak

I was everything
Then nothing
All at once.

I was wanted
And rejected
Within a matter of months.

I was over
Once started
Wet forced dry…

You came
Then you left
A relationship high.

Without light
No home
Lost a path to take.

The moon
A savior
Guiding heart to break.

Free for Life

Tree of life

Living a life
Locked in a cage
Materials and money
Built and made.

Oblivious to you
And even to me
Forgetting to stop
Or appreciate the trees.

Time was gone
Before my past
Escaped the cage
Free at last.

The dollars were gone
Back was a sense
Fights forgotten
With needed defense.

Nature caught me
Returned to the earth
Forgiven for all
Given new birth.

Again to grow
Endless smile on me
Returning as something
I always forgot to see.

Beautiful and big
Honest and true
Hearing the stories
Painfully told by you.

Stop I whisper
It’s never too late
Life is for living
Not sealing your fate.

Find the rainbows
Look at the trees
Surround yourself with life
Live to be free.

Feeling Proud – Instead of just Down

My Garden

What a spring and summer this has been! I have been unemployed since 3/24/17. I can’t believe 4 months have passed by already. Unemployment has been an extremely difficult situation for me. Finances are certainly an issue, but the effect on my self esteem has been most severe. To my credit – I haven’t just sat around thinking about how bad things are. I have kept busy. The thing that has kept me most busy is my garden, and oh my goodness – am I proud of my garden.

Watching nature work has kept my spirits up. Well – bugs have ticked me off a few times. Especially when it comes to my green beans. But – I have endured and learned – and as a result I am feeling quite proud of my determination and work. My family has supported my ups and downs, as well my excitement for anything and everything that has happened with the garden. While my trials are tough – the blessings of everything and everyone in my life are far greater.

We planted lavender in our front yard years ago to attract bees. The plant did not do very well until this year. Watching the honey bees flock to it is a daily pick-me-up. Watching them work in the garden is fun too. Because of the bees we have had a lot of squash already (both zucchini and crookneck). We have lots of cucumbers starting – they look like cute little gherkins right now.

Honey Bee and Lavender

The squash plants are starting to latch onto the plastic fence my husband put up inside the wood fence. He did this to keep the rabbits out, but now it has a new benefit. I went to pick through the plants yesterday -but there was a long branch I couldn’t move, and I was amazed to see it had little vines that had wrapped around the fencing to climb. It made my day!

Latching on

I really need a job. I really want a job. My self esteem could really use a job. Until that blessing comes – the blessings of my garden and my family are getting me through. Love is incredible that way!

Daily Lesson


Quiet the heart

Wake up the mind

Find the balance

In this day to unwind.

Peaceful steps

Down a winding road

Lifting weights

Of a heavy load.

Laugh at irony

As the feet trip

Hold the tongue

Watch the lips.

Now to rest

From where you’ve been

Until the sun rise 

To try again.

With Care


There were words 

On the tips of tongues 

And then silence 

Before heartbreak begun.

No intention

Or dreadful deed

Just ignored

No matter volume of pleads.

To forgive

When no hurt meant

Is still difficult 

With feelings bent.

Loneliness is often

When it should only be rare

And most often given

From the people who “care.”

Your Best

Your Best

ROY G BIV
Is the rainbow
The sun
Makes each shadow
A heart break
Reveals some pain
The peace of nature
Makes you sane
Unexpected loss
Leads to unexpected leads
The anger of another
Born by ignored pleads
Revenge an appetizer
Best served cold
Discipline is wasted
If not learned till old.
This moment now
Is the past simply waiting
And my happiness
Is not available for debating.
So my problems
Are simply something to fix
And my success
Can teach you some tricks.
So to each his own
Until help is the request
At the end of the day
Just do your best!